Tuesday, August 03, 2004
juz came back frm driving.. quite a forgettable lesson, he juz made me do vertical parking for like 40 mins.. reverse, turn out, reverse, turn out.. den went on the main road.. i think i am getting the hang of it, becoming more confident but well perhaps still not quite up to his standard..
juz feeling sian.. there is nothing to look forward to, nothing to aim for.. at least school's starting so i have something to preoccupy myself with.. if not i will juz be sitting in front of my comp screen, staring into blankness and thinking, wondering, worrying.. i juz told a friend that i cant help looking on the negative side of things.. maybe i was born a pessimist.. or maybe i am juz preparing myself mentally so that if the result does not turn out the way i want it to be, den i wont be that disappointed.
sometimes, i wish things were made simpler on earth, that people could think simpler too so that there will be less worry and misery.. yesterday my og brought a group of pple frm spd (society for the physically disabled) to sungei buloh.. i paired up with chee kong (dunno if his name is spelled like this). he's slightly mentally challenged but he is quite mobile and active.. throughout the trip, he was always smiling and very cheerful.. he's easily excited and amused and likes to make fun of pple.. i envy chee kong because i will never be like him.. after all, ignorance is bliss.. i wish i could be simple and ignorant den i would be happy..
but i live in hope and faith because i know God will always be there to watch over me and lend a listening ear to all my worries and troubles.. more importantly, he has great plans for me and he alone knows what is best for me..
i'll worship You, my God; 3:05 PM
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