Friday, September 10, 2004
i am in a reflective mood again.. dunno why but i just tend to think a lot.. abt the things i did.. abt my relationships with people.. my purpose in life etc etc.. i wonder sometimes why i work so hard. after tutorial today, i rushed down to paya lebar for driving.. den after that i rushed down to hougang to give my cousin tuition.. i need a breather, i need to get a life. sigh.. maybe medicine is a wrong choice after all..i dunno. i am disillusioned..
and to think that i am always telling my cousin to work hard so that he can lead a better life in future.. actually i am juz scaring him into doing better for his tests and exams haha..
been tutoring my sis these few days.. her prelims are coming soon.. can tell she is damn stressed. burning midnight oil.. really hope she does well, don't want to see her slacking around at home for 3 mths next yr.
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wound hasn't healed yet.. sometimes it feels ok.. sometimes not ok.. i dunno how.. i think i am perpetually depressed and pessimistic.. there is really nothing to look forward to..
i juz feel that i am always on the wrong end of the deal when i treat people well.. tt i am not being appreciated for my effort and my gd intention.. maybe when u give, u shouldn't expect to get anything in return.. or maybe shud stop being nice..
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i tried to run to macritchie on tuesday.. tink i overestimated my ability.. took 1hr plus to reach the double busstop at macritchie den i began my return trip.. when i reached hougang, my legs really couldn't take it so i got to walk home.. when i finally reached home, it was 3 hrs plus.. my family was wondering where i went to..
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i'll worship You, my God; 9:39 PM
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