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Sunday, October 17, 2004

road relay was good.. i really enjoyed it.. though got a tiny bit of complication midway.. cos the m4s were leading after the first leg so we decided to send our best runners instead of sticking to the original formation.. so Hope took over me loh.. i was perfectly alright with it loh cos i noe i wasnt a very gd runner and anw i ran for the other team and it was satisfying nonetheless.. i juz hope wl doesnt feel too bad abt it.. oh yah our first team came in first la and second team came in fourth with me anchoring haha.. damn lousy la.. i got a bit of lead but got overtaken at the turning point.. but that guy was damn gd la..

i am quite worried for the cas but who isnt? maybe the worry is a bit uncalled for la.. i m sure when the results come out most pple will do fine one.. sometimes we give ourselves too much stress..

i went thru my past entries that day.. a lot of emotion and feelings.. i still remembered the time i started this blog.. never ever was i so down and depressed.. felt so lonely and so helpless.. but He gave me hope..
it is hard to forget.. really.. those were the good times when i truly felt that this will be it.. the one.. maybe i was too simplistic then.. too naive.. i was a dreamer.. in a way, i still am now..
sometimes i felt if i have done things differently, the ending would not have been the same.. i wish i could go back in time.

i want to relive those moments.. those "first times".. there were so many.. it felt so good then, i thought there will never be a second one.. perhaps there never will be..

i have changed a lot between now and back when i started this blog.. maybe time has healed the wounds.. but perhaps the more impt factor is that i am beginning to see things frm a different perspective after embracing Christianity.. that not everything is abt "me", "myself" and "I".. that not everything must turn out your way.. if only i haf realised this earlier..

i am really happy with the way my life is now.. i have gotten over it.. most of it.. my heart still aches sometimes.. memories still come back..

a lot has changed.. a lot hasnt too.. if given a second chance, i want to do it all over again..

i'll worship You, my God; 1:26 AM

Sunday, October 10, 2004

hmm dunno wat i am doin also.. its 2 am and i am not sleeping.. always happens when i come online.. chat on msn.. check mail.. surf net.. check soccernet scores.. and time juz flies by.
and time does fly.. coming close to 3 mths since i made the decision to follow Christ.. and i got to say that every saturday and indeed everyday i am learning more and more of the greatest person that lived.. last yr this time, i was still living my own wretched life my way, my will and fulfilling my own selfish desires.. there was no God whatsoever.. at that time i believed i came to this world out of nothing, and when i die i will juz disappear frm the surface of the world.. so in fact i was, aptly put by my pastor, living a life of nothingness.. and i never ever thought that i would believe..
anw due to various circumstances and God's grace and will, and through 2 very impt people and arpc and punj, i am living a much more purposeful life now.. still a sinner nonetheless and ever prone to make mistakes and deviate frm the righteous path God has set for me.. but i will learn and mature in my Christian walk with God's grace and help of course..
very grateful that 2 of u, u noe who u are la, brought me to punj.. if not for u taking that first step to ask me, i would not have eventually believed. so really do not be afraid to tell others abt the gd news bcos there are people out there to be saved and can be saved.. at least thru my own experience, all 3 non christians in my "just looking" class have believed now.. and i really think that with an open mind and heart, the reality of Jesus' sacrifice on the cross is so great and incredible that one will eventually be touched and believe in him.
well juz thought abt sharing this with u cos i think it has truly been a life changing experience for me.. and definitely the most significant thing that will ever occur to me in my life.. this is also my testimony to all the non-believers who are reading this.. my humble little way of spreading the good word.. well i think this counts too rite? heh..
its 2.50am now.. muz go sleep liao.. =)

i'll worship You, my God; 2:00 AM

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Friday, October 08, 2004

woah super long never blog liao.. well damn busy lah.. kancheong already.. CA coming.. den got so many things to do..
driving lessons.. stepping up the frequency.. cos test coming soon.. abt same time as ca.. superb loh.. but i really hope to pass first time.. cos the lessons are burning a giant hole in my pocket.. den muz buy stethoscope somemore.. i think i shud be buying the classic la.. no point buying so expensive one.. later i blur leave it lying ard or sth.. if i doing paeds rotation den see how la..
most of my sec 4 tutees did ok for their prelims.. the only one who din make the cut is my sis.. she quite jialat ah.. now i am making notes for her chem and physics while making notes for my pharmaco and microb etc.. stress man.. stress from my mum.. but really hope my sis does well for Os la though there is only up to a limit wat i can do for her, the rest is up to her own effort..
dunno y my comments link suddenly disappear.. farnie.. anw u all want to leave comments can juz msg me thru msn or sth or email me.. or juz read n "appreciate" (this word sounds very familiar rite? it is the most used word by ng yee kong, the anat lecturer..)
oh yah and i am running.. haha wats new rite? well wanted to blog abt ahm one but it was quite forgettable.. timing exactly same as last yr.. next sat got intrafac road relay.. pretty excited abt it.. i did a reasonably gd time this morning.. den i juz went for a 2hr25min jog in the evening.. super shagged.. i think i did like 40 plus km this wk.. haha must haolian abit.. after all u all cant leave comments haha..
today quite slack ah din study much.. nvm there is a chinese saying that taking a break allows one to go a further distance.. so yup u guys dont mug too much also k.. sometimes must relax too..
ok gd luck guys.. wont be blogging for some time.. take care!

i'll worship You, my God; 9:43 PM

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