Monday, January 23, 2006
i knew this will be touchy.. but still got to clarify..
well it's not self reassuring if i really believe that God exists and that He does have his own plans for me.. how shall i put it? lets just say that i have something in mind that i want to achieve, lets say do well in medicine.. u know i can spend all my time and effort on it and on that day i get a lousy case or i screw up totally and i fail my mbbs. touch wood. it's not that he has failed to bless me or anything but he could have done this for my good.. perhaps 6 more months of studies could make me a better doctor or sth.. i am just stating an example..
to others, this might seem like comforting myself or even deceiving myself.. but for us who truly believe in him, we know that our lives do not belong to us but the mere existence of us here is sustained by God above.. and he has every right to decide what he wants for us.
at times, our human minds cannot fathom what God has planned for us.. but he truly has our interests at heart. my sis failed her promos and got retained.. to her it was like the world came crashing down.. but to God, it was all in his plans to seek her and make her accept Christ in her life in this time of adversity..
sometimes i wonder whether i should talk about all these.. not bcos i am worried about being judged by you.. but bcos i am not sure if it might be a stumbling block to some of u..
i shared about this during my testimony at the christmas party. i used to think christians are full of themselves and look down on other people.. but now i feel that we are just convicted by our faith and want to share the good news with you.. if there is a hole in front but u cant see it and i warn you of it, i dont think that is being arrogant or trying to force my beliefs on you. rather i feel rather selfish if i dont warn you about it.. (i might tell u about the hole on this blog next time.. and be prepared to get shot down ha.)
i dunno why i went off the point.. anyway it is not as if i will passively sit there and let God do his stuff.. i dont think thats what i am supposed to do.. i will still carry on with what i am doing, but with the knowledge that the outcome is decided by him above and that it is for the good of me, whether i can truly understand it or not, and it is according to the will of him.
oh manu just beat liverpool 1-0.. happy! i shall sleep in peace..
i'll worship You, my God; 2:07 AM
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